Being a 1.5 generation Korean American, I identify with this post immensely. I arrived to CA at age 9 from Daejon. As the oldest of 3 children (all girls), I have similar stories to many of "us."

I would greatly appreciate it if you could point me to actual sources that you reference - 1) social anthropologist that you started this post with, 2) study about high percentage of KA's in entertainment, etc, and 3) high percentage of KAs and mental illness. All these references were new to me and I'm keenly interested in reading the actual sources directly. Thank you!

Again, too much to say. Did you get the looong note I sent months ago along the same lines, esp the mental illness? I think I spend about 70% of my free head space thinking about exactly this post (20% more on my daughter's schooling options and the remaining 10% has to take care of the rest).

Anyway, in the meanwhile just wanted to make sure you'd seen this: http://online.wsj.com/article_email/SB123639056889058949-lMyQjAxMDI5MzA2NjMwOTYwWj.html#articleTabs%3Darticle

In college a professor of mine talked a great deal about time travel as a state of mind. It was in a class about colonialism and the kind of psychic break that rapid culture shifts can bring and I remember it speaking to my experience like an arrow through the heart.

And I remember thinking that he had it a bit wrong, that the cultural dissonance for people on either end of the spectrum the dislocation is disorienting... for my people like grandparents and parents and for the community we ended up in here in Michigan who had never seen a family like ours, but for us, the generation in the middle going back and forth was relatively easy. We compartmentalized/contextualized/ and normalized.

My grandfather had one of those typically epic tragic Korean childhoods. His family was killed by the Japanese and then he was brought up by a Japanese family, only to see them killed in WWII. His first wife and two children disappeared during the communist takeover of the North (he fled south). He managed to stay sane, get marred, have a second family, move to the states and start a thriving chain of Japanese restaurants. I grew up with my grandparents (my parents worked nonstop), and constant was weighted down by his stories while I was just trying to be a "normal" kid in a suburban high school where there were only 2 other Korean kids. I was popular. Played sports. Fit in as much as I could.

I grew up thinking of myself as so different and yet now I find myself just one of an army of Grace Parks (I find it particularly ironic that the girl on Battlestar Galactica is a Grace Park and that she is a replicant) many of whom seem to have experiences similar to mine and yet so different from every other kid I grew up with.

As much as I hate to think we can be easily pigeonholed we seem to all end up in very easily categorized clichéd groups. By my own reckoning there are about 7 types of 1.5ers and virtually all of us fit into one of those categorizations. There is something sci-fi about that sameness and about the sameness of our experiences.

My grandfather dreamed of going back btw. This is something he talks about every day and yet when we did go back to the place where my mother was born (a small farm near the border with North Korea), he was disgusted by how little had changed. The thing about cultural time travel is that it's possible to move forward but not back.

I still time travel all the time. I do it every time I go home.

yeah. i bet it is pretty much the same for anyone who experience the kind of cultural/geographical clash from relocation.

I was reading Infidel by Ayaan Hirsi Ali. She's not even Korean and she obviously went through far more complex situations than I could ever imagine.

But the struggles between daughter/mom, between one culture and another.. wanting to be free and the responsibility.. Many of stuff she was writing about, if I changed the names to some Korean names, locations to some Korean cities and American cities, Why, it still all made the perfect sense.

It all seems universal.

I adore the graces btw, there is to me a strong touch of the early Negro Spiritual in there - how our parents named us for what they needed or hoped for most, how they adopted Christianity in a way similar to the first African-American Christians.

Amyable - I emailed my old grad school prof for references to the anthro discussion. I'm one of those people that tend to remember themes and points better than dates and names so if you have some time I'll be able to find this for you. As for the recent studies I believe the studies were used in short articles for Time a couple of years ago, and as for that last point about mental illness that is a personal theory of mine, from observations over the years among my own family and others.

And Unha, can I borrow your book? I'd been meaning to read that. I just finished Black Boy by RIchard Wright. I agree with you btw and thank God that human experience tends to be universal, that at the end as perfect beings we could relate to everyone without barriers.

But I also think these days that "universal" becomes confused with "same" and I am more struck than not by reading say Chinese-American lit such as the Woman Warrior or the one Vietnamese-Am memoir I read, about how because of the storytelling I could relate but how their stories still felt foreign to me. My Asian-ness or fellow immigrant status didn't privilege me somehow into their stories, the only thing I think it did was to make me more open - in the same way that all good readers are, culture aside.

1.5'er for better or for worse is it's own thing, and it's a thing that will die with us pretty much. What I'm compelled by is that lack of articulation about us, the lack of story - if only so we are recorded somewhere, and possibly helpful to our own children who will inevitably pass our learned traits downward.

Heavy, heavy I know - I blame it on the recession.